So at my weekly Sunday morning AA meeting, yes I go to those and no I do not feel I’m breaking tradition 11 by sharing this on my own personal blog, I took my 12 year sobriety token earlier today.
Yes it’s now been more than 12 years since I had a drink or a mind altering drug. I have to honestly say that my life could not be better. I had no idea that day I came to, again, on the bathroom floor of a strange hotel room in Las Vegas and slowly pulled myself up by the bathroom counter that I’d never have another drink. However when I finally got upright and took a good look in the mirror, I saw a man looking back at me who was not the man that I had hoped nor intended to one day become.
The man I saw in the mirror that morning was broken, broken beyond what I could imagine. I thankfully had a moment of clarity and for the first time in my many years of overindulgence realized I needed to make a change. I had no idea what that change would be or how it would happen but I finally, and honestly, reached out and asked for help.
By asking for help I found a better way of life for me, and that is a life free from alcohol and drugs. Please don’t take me wrong here, alcohol and drugs are fine for people who can handle them. I am just not someone who can handle them. Somewhere in my many years of drinking, and using, I lost control. Therefore it’s better for me to just abstain. I am grateful I finally figured out what works best for me.
I’ve never had it so good!
Fearsome Beard 