Sober Beard

3653 days ago today I came to on the floor of a Las Vegas hotel room bathroom. Thankfully, so far, that was the last time I came to in that condition. My gratitude for the sobriety I have and the people who have helped me along the way on my path cannot be fully expressed. However that deep gratitude is there and it sustains my soul.

Ten years…

Wow.

10 year Sober and Grateful Fearsome Beard

How’s Fearsome?

A treasured reader asked us through the comments the other day how we were doing post surgery. I appreciate his concern and appreciate even more his gentle nudge to open myself up and express myself more. I’m grateful to be part of a blogging community that is just that…community, a community that cares.

We are doing well. Fearsome survived uncut and unscathed. I got both scoped and cut.

The surgeon cut in order to open the top of the shoulder large enough to remove the rather large cyst that had developed on top of my right AC Joint. He then scoped into the AC joint and removed the end of my clavicle in order to clean out the arthritis that had caused the cyst to develop and then took a look at my bicep tendon as well as my rotator cuff. Both the rotator cuff and bicep tendon were in good shape so I got away with just a cyst removal and the clavicle clean up.

Pain has been tolerable and I am doing well as long as I don’t really do anything. So do nothing right now is the key I have discovered. Stitches come out this Thursday and I’ll be able to finally shower. Physical therapy will begin April 15th.

So during my do nothing time I sleep and I watch films. I also indulge in YouTube clips and just found this one. I’m not a religious man but I do enjoy a well performed gospel tune. Oh honey… is this performance fabulous. It’s truly a work of art that moved me to tears. I hope you enjoy it as well.

Leslie Jordan featuring Chris & Morgane Stapleton – Farther Along – 2021

Beard of the day

Surgery ready Beard

Today is surgery day. Right shoulder is having arthritis and a cyst removed from the AC joint. Fearsome can be rather invasive at times as he seems to get into everything, so we had a talk and he agreed I could tie him up for the time being. He doesn’t want to accidentally get cut off.

Wish us luck and healing. We may be back tomorrow, or we may not due to pain status.

Peace.

Reflections

Time to pause.

Gratitude is what I feel when I stop to reflect on the fact I’m a sober man. 

Gratitude for the fact that I’m no longer hiding from myself and others that I have a problem that I can no longer handle. I had driven myself to the edge of a cliff and had a choice. Thankfully I chose the choice to give up self destruction for self recovery.

Today I pause to remember, be grateful and to continue forward on my current path. It’s a path that is working for me. A path of growth, serenity and honesty.

9 years – November 7, 2011

Nature’s Beauty

We here at Fearsome Beard try to stay focused on the positive, the beautiful and the uplifting.

Although not uplifting, we felt that the post previous to this one today was necessary to point out the obvious. We feel that the obvious needs to be pointed out because for some reason there seems to be a blind spot in society that we think can be changed, but only can be changed by pointing it out. Please join us do your part and point it out as often as necessary to hopefully resolve that blind spot.
Thank you for hearing us out and supporting our right to speak up.

Now for something beautiful.
After a stellar spring and amazing early summer, just when the hundreds of Oriental hybrid lilies planted in our front yard are about done with their annual show, this one started opening about 4 days ago and today was in full glory.

Beards and Flowers

The scent is heavenly and can be enjoyed from standing all the way out in the street.  The stalk is a full six feet tall and yes it’s that big that Fearsome is almost small in comparison. The blooms are each a good 10-12 inches across.

One of Fearsome’s very first post was with one of our lilies back on June 2, 2014 and can be seen  HERE.