This Time I Know It’s For Real

Our beloved Disco Diva Donna Summer released this danceable hit on February 13, 1989.
Hmmm… the day before Valentine’s Day is quite appropriate huh?
I met my now husband some 32 years ago in 1990 not too long after it’s release.
By the time I met him at that fateful Tea-Dance, at the La-Te-Da in Key West, I had already taken a twirl or 5 to across that incredibly fabulous Copa dance floor shaking my booty to this tune’s beat.
To say that I simply loved this tune would be an understatement.
I fucking adore it.
So at this moment in time during Pride month 2022, some 32 years after meeting him and 33 years after it’s release, I post this toe tapper to dedicate it to him, my husband, my Better Half.

Donna Summer – This Time I Know It’s For Real (Extended Vinyl) -1989

To you my love, I knew it was for real the first moment you looked into my eyes.

A year ago today

A year ago today I posted this photo for the second time.
The first time I posted it right after the delightful meal we all shared in Philly.
Last year it was posted in loving memory of our dearest Warrior Queen.
Today I post it in memory of both Anne Marie and Todd.

Todd, Fearsome, Mistress Maddie and Anne Marie

Our blogger friend Old Lurker has an incredible tribute HERE

Todd and Anne Marie, we miss you but are grateful that you are still in our hearts. You always will be. Smooches!

Close to you

I am at loss for words when it comes to the  memories this song brings to me. I was young and hadn’t yet gotten to the age of falling in love. Yet this song gave me a comfort, and a glimpse of what romance must be just from the beauty of the music. I knew every single word of this song and could sing it from start to finish. Of corse I could because I had listened to it daily on my handheld transistor radio. A radio I still have to this day.

Still in its carrying case.

The station you ask? Oh that would have been AM 1240 WROV. The radio? Yes it still works. It was at my side for years and even survived a few bicycle crashes. My brother found it in a drawer when cleaning out our mother’s house after I moved her out here to live with me. He saved it from the sale for me as he knew how much I treasured it as a young boy.

I post the tune today as I can’t think of a better song to wish you a Happy Valentine’s Day. I send you love and hope that you in turn spread love to everyone you see and touch today.

Carpenters – (They Long To Be) Close To You – 1970

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
On the day that you were born the angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
On the day that you were born the angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you
Wa, close to you
Wa, close to you
Ha, close to you
La, close to you
(….oh and yes Karen was not only the vocalist, but also the drummer. )

May Peace be …

I was so young when The Youngbloods originally recorded (1966) and then released (1967) this song I do not remember it. However this song is part of my life’s soundtrack and I do remember it being popular as it was re-released by The Youngbloods again in 1969 and finally making it to #5 in the charts.

The tune has a longer history dating back to a performance of it in 1964 by The Kingston Trio and also having been recorded after that date by a number of artists including Jefferson Airplane and David Crosby. However it is this version by The Youngbloods that has remained the most popular and remembered.

I post it today as I find we are at another one of those turbulent times that reminds us that security is but an illusion and peace can sometimes seem elusive. For me what  I have to remember is that hate cannot rid us of hate, only love can do that.

I must take a deep breath and take time to respond and not to react. I must strive to understand, accept, respect, have empathy, forgive, share, have patience, give and love. I must remember that truth always reveals itself, even if it takes longer than I want it to. I must strive to learn, to grow and to teach. I must smile, I must smile on you and even smile on those with whom I differ. I must remember that I am human and I have more in common with others than I sometimes realize, as they are human as well.

I mustn’t claim to have all the answers because I don’t. I must stand for righteousness without acting, feeling or being superior. I must remember that actions speak louder than words. I must be kind. I must be an example of what is good by being just that which is good. I mustn’t judge, nor throw stones. I must help those in need. I must love, love unconditionally.

The Youngbloods – Get Together – 1966

May peace be with you my brother, my sister, my friend.

Sober Beard

3653 days ago today I came to on the floor of a Las Vegas hotel room bathroom. Thankfully, so far, that was the last time I came to in that condition. My gratitude for the sobriety I have and the people who have helped me along the way on my path cannot be fully expressed. However that deep gratitude is there and it sustains my soul.

Ten years…

Wow.

10 year Sober and Grateful Fearsome Beard

Silly Love Songs

As a young man stepping into puberty, 1976 was a carefree summer of fun. Life was new, life was exciting and life was exhilarating. I was changing and the world was changing.
This tune was full of joy and always gave me a kick in my step.

Wings / Paul and Linda McCartney – Silly Love Songs – 1976

🎵“Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs
And what’s wrong with that?”🎶

There is nothing wrong with that.

Thank you Paul McCartney for your many places in the soundtrack that is my life. This one never fails to bring me joy.

When our pets die

Rainbow Bridge – Author Unknown

Gilda came into our lives as a stray whom we rescued some 14 years ago when she was about 2 years old. It was actually a very long, stressful and convoluted story but we were fortunate to legally adopt her from her owners with the help of our local shelter. She was also fortunate that it was my car she stepped out into the road in front of that day. I first wrote about her HERE and also celebrated her 12th birthday HERE .

Gilda was a Belgian Laekenois and Belgian Malinois cross. She had been purchased by a young family in our neighborhood to be a guard dog. Belgians are a special breed that can be difficult for inexperienced dog owners to handle. It was not a good mix and she found herself in a horrible situation. I won’t go any further into details except that by the time she stepped into traffic in front of my moving car she was malnourished and maladjusted. At the moment my eyes landed on her I didn’t yet realize the blessing the universe had just placed into my path, I just knew I had to get this strange and frightened dog to safety.

After many healthy years here with us, Gilda started her decline about a year ago. It was slow and she had many wonderful days, but she had some struggles too. It’s when the struggles outweigh the good days that we owners have to make that final hard choice. Last Saturday it appeared it was about time to call the vet for the home visit, by Sunday evening it was obvious. Monday morning at 8 am the phone weighed about 20 pounds as I dialed the number, fortunately they had a 12 noon opening for the same day.

Monday was a beautiful day and The Better Half had the day off. We were able to open all the doors and windows and spend the morning right here on the house giving her her favorite treats, help her out into her yard for a few last trips and lounge on the floor with her in her comfy bed. We were all blessed as the breeze blew through the house and she could part this life peacefully with us and all her sibling dogs at her side.

While we will never see her beautiful sparkling eyes again in this life, we know we will on the other side. She was the most loyal, loving and gentle soul that anyone could ever be blessed with in life.

Goodbye for now Gilda. Please say hello to Mitzi, Virgil, Diva, & Nina for us. We love you and look forward to the day we can hold you close again.

Gilda with Fearsome

Gilda with Hazel

 

Gilda and Nina

Her eyes

Godspeed.

Traditions

The little boy within the Beard that is Fearsome loves A Charlie Brown Christmas. Therefore we continue the tradition of our yearly Christmas Eve post.

Peace and goodwill toward all.

May the light, love, peace, happiness and joy that is the spirit of which our winter holidays are intended be yours.

Merry Xmas!

 

5 years ago today

My marriage became legal nation wide.

Obergefell Ruling – 2015

As of that day we had been together 25 years and had been legally married in California for 7. Today we Have been together more than 30 years, legally married in California for 12 and nationally for 5. True love isn’t something we choose. True love chooses us when we least expect it.

Today we must continue to speak up, speak out, be visible and we must vote. We mustn’t take for granted the ground we have gained toward equality and freedom.

Same Love – Macklemore – 2012

Peace, love and respect.

I Believe in the Power of Love

Yesterday while driving the better half and I were discussing our experiences  with discrimination as gay men, his experiences as a Latino and my experience as a white male. Being gay men we can empathize about discrimination to a point, but we agreed we can never fully understand what it is to be black.

What we can do is acknowledge that we don’t have the same plight, but we can stand for what is right. We can speak out against injustice. We can love, support and stand with our black brothers and sisters. We can believe in the power of Love.

Power of Love – Deee-Lite – 1990

Why Love? The answer us given to us by one if our greatest inspirations.

Peace on Earth, Goodwill Toward All

Fearsome believes the true meaning of Christmas is peace, love, humility, acceptance and forgiveness. For us the meaning is not commercial nor is it religious. It is simply a celebration of the miracle that is life.

We want to wish each and everyone of you love and peace. May your dreams come true.

Merry Christmas