3653 days ago today I came to on the floor of a Las Vegas hotel room bathroom. Thankfully, so far, that was the last time I came to in that condition. My gratitude for the sobriety I have and the people who have helped me along the way on my path cannot be fully expressed. However that deep gratitude is there and it sustains my soul.
10 year Sober and Grateful Fearsome Beard
Justice had been served.
George Floyd’s killer is guilty on all three charges.
Cameo – Word Up – 1986
Black Lives Do Matter
Thirty three years ago today Tracy Chapman released this simple yet complex tune. In 4 minutes it tells the story of a lifetime and reveals the life changes of choices combined with actions.
It truly is a work of art that came during a seemingly simple yet very complex part of my life where some decisions combined with actions not only changed my life toward the better, but most likely saved it.
Thank you Tracy for sharing this with us. It is an important tune in my life’s soundtrack. My heart fills with joy and my being with serenity every time I hear it.
Tracy Chapman – Fast Car- April 6, 1988
If you find this blog post and find that you are currently in an abusive or violent relationship and feel you are trapped there is no safe way out, I am here to tell you that from my own experience there is, even when it doesn’t seem like it. There is a safe way out and it may save your life. Tell someone, ask for help, make choices and act. Action is your lifeline but do it discreetly. Be careful and aware of your safety. The National Domestic Violence Hotline is 800.799.SAFE (7233) or online at https://www.thehotline.org/
A treasured reader asked us through the comments the other day how we were doing post surgery. I appreciate his concern and appreciate even more his gentle nudge to open myself up and express myself more. I’m grateful to be part of a blogging community that is just that…community, a community that cares.
We are doing well. Fearsome survived uncut and unscathed. I got both scoped and cut.
The surgeon cut in order to open the top of the shoulder large enough to remove the rather large cyst that had developed on top of my right AC Joint. He then scoped into the AC joint and removed the end of my clavicle in order to clean out the arthritis that had caused the cyst to develop and then took a look at my bicep tendon as well as my rotator cuff. Both the rotator cuff and bicep tendon were in good shape so I got away with just a cyst removal and the clavicle clean up.
Pain has been tolerable and I am doing well as long as I don’t really do anything. So do nothing right now is the key I have discovered. Stitches come out this Thursday and I’ll be able to finally shower. Physical therapy will begin April 15th.
So during my do nothing time I sleep and I watch films. I also indulge in YouTube clips and just found this one. I’m not a religious man but I do enjoy a well performed gospel tune. Oh honey… is this performance fabulous. It’s truly a work of art that moved me to tears. I hope you enjoy it as well.
Leslie Jordan featuring Chris & Morgane Stapleton – Farther Along – 2021
What a wonderful way to spend day 1 recovering from shoulder surgery than finding kind, supportive and uplifting words from the leaders of our nation,
I am grateful to our leaders for standing up for love, acceptance and diversity.
Saw this in my news feed this morning. Gives me hope.
It’s a beautiful sunny morning and no better way than to welcome spring than with Tiny Tim’s fabulous rendition of Tip Toe Through The Tulips.
Tiny Tim – Tiptoe Thru The Tulips With Me – 1968
May spring 2021 bring each and everyone who finds this little post health, happiness and peace.
We here at Fearsome Beard the blog thingy believe in recognizing and even promoting those who we feel are working not only to improve themselves but the world around them.
Yesterday we had the honor of witnessing a break out moment for a rising star of our future. We were so moved by Amanda Gordon that the moment we could find a clip of her poetry reading on YouTube we posted it. Today we learned more about her from Anderson Cooper. We hope to learn lots more about her in the future as we watch her rise into a leader. A leader worth listening to.
She gives us hope.
Amanda Gordon / Youth Poet Laureate 2017 – The Hill We Climb – Presidential Inaugural Reading January 20, 2021
“For there is always light if only we are brave enough to see it, if only we are brave enough to be it.”
Emotional doesn’t even start to describe my feelings. My feelings are appropriate.
I think I’ll just let myself feel the emotions as these tears of joy still stream down my cheeks as they have off and on all day today.
Filled with hope I tuck myself into bed tonight, for tomorrow will finally arrive when I awake.
It’s been a long cold lonely winter. Thank all of you for sticking with me through it, I couldn’t have done it without you.
The Beatles – Here Comes The Sun – 1969
I awake this morning filled with hope. A hope that has me shedding tears of joy. A joy that comes as a weight that has been hard to bear is being lifted. I’m finding it hard to express the depth of this hope.
The hope that I feel comes from my belief that inherently humankind is actually kind at it’s heart. While I recognize the faults, folly and imperfections of us, I see that kindness, love and understanding prevail over time.
I believe in sharing, promoting and focusing on the good. I believe this because I value that you get what you focus on the most.
There is a lightness to my shoulders this morning. There is an easier feeling than what I’ve felt in the past 4 years. My angst is receding. A feeling of relief, calm and serenity is coming over me.
There’s a kind of Hush – Herman’s Hermits – 1967
This tune is one I enjoyed as a child. It’s a tune that takes me to a simpler place. It brings me joy today.
This is a monumental week for me as a liberal left leaning democrat. I must remember to be careful, careful of my expectations. Utopia cannot happen at once but must be built. Patience and an open mind will benefit me as we move forward.
I am ready to lay this burden of angst down and lift my wings and fly. However I will remember that I do reap what I sow.
Annie Lennox – Little Bird – 1992
It was worth my time, hopefully it’s worth yours.
Hope can be a complicated word for me. When one looks up the definition of hope the answers lean toward wish, or wishful thinking, however to me hope means more. Please don’t get me wrong as there is nothing wrong with wishful, but to me hope runs deeper.
Given that I am not a scholar, nor English major, I often look to the dictionary to help me refine the meanings of a word that I want or need for my expression. The typical definitions just don’t pinpoint the feeling I have behind the word hope.
To me hope is a very deep feeling, trust, desire and expectation for good. By this I mean good things that bring value. Values such as trust, honesty, equality, justice, kindness, service, humility, empathy, understanding and even love. Hope is something I feel from my being, my heart.
This morning I turned on this here iPad thingy to find news of hope coming from the election results in Georgia. Hope that restores my faith in us as a society. May this hope live and grow.
Well it’s 2021. We are still here.
There is a light at the end of this here tunnel and on this here blog thingy we hope to inspire in the coming year. It is time we got back to our roots, took stock of what we have and commenced to grow into what we wish to become.
Fearsome is still growing, I desire to follow his lead.
John Lennon has always been a leader who inspires me, so I’m handing it to him to kick us off on this very New Year’s Day 2021.
John Lennon / The Plastic Ono Band – Instant Karma! ( We All Shine On ) – 1970
Ella is simply perfection.
Therefore I’m going to let her serenade in my 2021. Relaxing at home with my better half and my pups, that’s what I’m doing this New Years Eve.
Fearsome and I wish all of you happiness, health, joy, prosperity, love and magic in the year 2021.
Ella Fitzgerald – What Are You Doing New Years Eve – 1960
Fitting yes, yet with this song there is hope.
Judy Garland – Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas – Meet Me In St. Louis – 1944
The little boy within the Beard that is Fearsome loves A Charlie Brown Christmas. Therefore we continue the tradition of our yearly Christmas Eve post.
Peace and goodwill toward all.
May the light, love, peace, happiness and joy that is the spirit of which our winter holidays are intended be yours.
It’s a beautiful winter solstice evening here in San Diego California. We’ve just returned from a 4.7 mile walk as the sun set over the Pacific ocean to our west for its final time before our earth begins its tilt northward marking the beginning of winter. Today was a stunningly beautiful 75 degree F day here with crystal blue skies, warm but with a refreshing nip in the air. Simply the optimum Southern California winters’s day, kind of a cordial welcome to longer days that are on the horizon as we march toward spring.
Moments after arriving home we found this a cappella recording of Veni Veni Emmanuel. It’s simple yet refreshingly stunning. We found it an appropriate to welcome winter.
The Gesualdo Six – Veni Veni Emmanuel – 2014
Happy Winter Solstice…
May peace be with you.