On this New Years Eve of 2022 I awoke with this song in my head. It is one that I’ve always enjoyed, even as a child. The Dead South does it justice.
The Dead South – House Of The Rising Sun – 2016
Wishing all y’all a wonderful New Year in 2022!
2016
Reflections
Yesterday I had a meltdown.
Emotions got the best of me. My assistant at my office who is a company employee was let go this week. I freaked out going into the holiday weekend. I’ve got lots of business Monday and will be trying to get out of town. Fear hit.
Was this meltdown really due to her termination? I mean I had just sat down and made plans with her about how we would handle the workload with my upcoming absence.
No the meltdown wasn’t about her. My company would never leave me out on a limb without back up. My boss was most understanding and helped me to see that I am human. I had a world of weight on my shoulders and I wasn’t seeing it. My boss is a ray of light. I am blessed to have her.
This post isn’t dwell on the negatives of the year. I write this to acknowledge the stressors that I might see the hidden success, strength and blessings within those clouds that facilitated the meltdown.
-2016 was the year I was to have the largest real estate deal thus far in my career. For reasons beyond my control the deal was lost to a competitor. I thought all the energy and effort I had put into securing it for a couple years prior was lost. In hindsight I learned. I learned I am capable of presenting a complete marketing package to a corporation and that I actually am capable of marketing a new development for an investment group.
-2016 was the year my shoulder pain would be cured as I was to have surgery for its repair. Well I’m still in pain and my range of motion is very limited. I can’t even pick up more than 5 pounds with my left arm and the surgery was 7 months ago. In hindsight the worst is behind me. It wasn’t one but three different surgeries performed that day. My body is re-cooperating at its own pace. I gain more range of motion weekly and I am down to just two Motrin a day, which is the least amount of anti-inflammatory medication I’ve taken daily in three years. I will regain range strength and fully recover in time.
-2016 marks the year of my brother’s death. He died one year and 1 week after my father died. Our immediate family went from all five of us down to just 3 at the anniversary of my father’s passing. Watching my mother loose her oldest son was heartbreaking. In hindsight my brother was ill for many years. His struggle with alcoholism, pancreatic disease, liver failure and diabetes had left his 62 year old body destroyed and mangled. He was suffering as were his loved ones caring for him. His demise was early yet it was his time. He touched our lives as we touched his. He lives on through us. His soul is at peace and his body no longer suffers.
-2016 marks my mother’s stroke. She is 84 and still works. My mother is young at heart, full of love and hope. She gives freely and loves unconditionally. Suddenly she can’t work, she’s stuck at home, she is weak and unsteady on her feet. She can hardly use her right hand. In hindsight it was mild. It was a warning that her blood pressure needed to be monitored daily. She was having spikes in her blood pressure and had thrown a few clots leading to several small strokes that will only temporarily limit her. She is in physical therapy. She should fully recover in time and be able to drive again and possibly work again which is her goal.
-2016 marks the worst year of my business and income since about the year 2000. My business faltered even though the real estate market is booming around me. Where- o -where had I gone wrong? Where were my referrals and clients? In hindsight I look at what I wrote above. My energies had other priorities to be directed toward. Life freakin’ happens and I met the terms life gave me. I lived. I grew. I laughed, cried, loved, traveled, gave, comforted, recovered, shared, healed. I stressed. I accomplished. I slept. I did all of it sober. I freakin’ stayed sober.
Life, it has struggles. Life, it has blessings. Life, it is a miracle. Life, it is meant to live.
Happy New Year, may the next year bring all of us challenges, growth, love, and life…yes lots of life!
Comic-Con Day Four
Balloon Art
Two Snapes?
Special Edition Wuvable Oaf Book by Ed Luce, (Fearsome couldn’t resist it any longer)
Ed Luce Panel
Beards, Heavy Metal, Wrestling and a very Wuvable Oaf…
(Sorry for low quality I was sitting in back)
Fearsome meets Mr. Pickles over at Adult Swim Playground
Thirteen foot Captian America Bronze Statue unveiled at Comic-con is now on its way for permanent installation in the Bourough of Brooklyn.
So this Limited Edition 13 inch bronze replica Captian America Statue may have “accidentally” ended up coming home with Fearsome.
Limited Comic-Con Exclusive Star Wars Chewbacca Nixon Watch …Fearsome couldn’t leave the Con without it.
Blair Witch signing
BB8
Fearsome with a SyFy Trolli Pink Beard
Dr. Who
Vampire Diaries Signing
R2-D2 ….until next year, enjoy life and keep it on the sunny side. May the force always be with you. Thanks Comic-Con!
Beard of the day
Joker Beard
Comic-Con 2016 Day Three
The Better Half, Fearsome and two of our wonderful Nieces at Starz American Gods Booth.
Back of a random photographer’s shirt.
Out on the street fabulousness.
Fearsome amoung the Mr. Robot crowd.
SyFy’s Trolli Wierdly Awesome
Viva Sharknado!
(Sharknado 4 …seriously)
Somewhere in South Park
Beard of the day
Comic-Con Beard
Comic-Con 2016 Day Two
Comics can fetch some unreal prices. These are just a fraction of what some will go for.
Dorklandia
Inquisitor Fearsome
Adult Swin Skeeball, Fearsome played #5 which was Snowball Kitty
Floor Scene
Iceman
Wonder Woman
Apparently Deadpool enjoys gaming.
Fearsome with one of his favorite inspirational Gurus …Rich Roll! …Woo Hoo!
Oh Rocky!
Comic-Con 2016 Day 1
The Designated Survivor White House
Walking Dead Zombies across the street from White House
Cruella DeVille
Ursala
Crowd Scene
Space Balls Cleavage
Fearsome in the Star Wars Booth
Batman
Princess Leia
Beard of the day
Daniel Radcliffe Beard
Love your mother
Happy Earth Day 2016
Don’t believe me just watch
I just climbed down off the roof. Christmas lights are wrapped up and boxes will go in attic tomorrow. As you know from this previous post, when I am out on the roof I can enjoy the breezes and views of San Diego bay all the way to the Pacific. With such a lofty perch and an inspirational setting, Fearsome can contemplate.
What I make out of 2016 is only mine to choose. I choose phenomenal. I choose prosperous. I choose outstanding. Yup a contemplating beard like Fearsome can be inspirational. Together we are going to make 2016 over the top!
As Pearl might say, “Judge, I feel a song coming on!”
Rabbit
A certain blogger text me a pic of a rabbit last evening as the year was changing over on the east coast. It was his way of reminding me that if you start the first of a month by saying rabbit it brings luck. Going further if you say rabbit on the first of every month for a year, you have a year of good luck. Not being one to step on a crack, Fearsome asked me to say it. So here it is, rabbit.
Yesterdays gratitude list brings me to my gratitude for you. I am humbled by the year that Fearsome Beard had in 2015. Now at only 18 months in the blogosphere, due to you dear readers, we can share some exciting numbers for us. Fearsome had more than 37,000 views from a total of 112 countries, has accumulated more than 300 fabulous followers and posted 593 photos in 2015. Thank you for your interest, input, humor and loyalty. We hope that you stick around for more fun and adventure in the coming years.
Another blogger gave me some insight this morning of a post topic that seems to increase blog traffic. I’m not sure if Fearsome will allow me to go there. We will see what the year brings and I have learned never say never. I find it a hilarious post even though the subject matter isn’t about beards.
So cheers to you for a wonderful new year in 2016. May your joys be as deep as the oceans, your troubles as light as foam, and may you find sweet peace of mind wherever you may roam.
While traditions suggest a white Rabbit, I feel that white is a rather presumptuous color for someone of my “experience”.
Beard of the day
Cheers to 2016 Beard
Gonna be a good life, a good good life.
As I write this it’s 2015. Only moments of it left for some of us. Already gone for the rest.
Gratitude.
Each year, each moment, brings new beginnings, adventures, humdrum, disappointments, rewards, pain, love, fear, happiness, hurt, peace, contentment, growth, endings, change, death, life. I feel gratitude.
All we have is now. The present.
We don’t have yesterday, it’s gone. We had it, all it left us with is memories.
We don’t have tomorrow, it hasn’t come. Tomorrow is only perceived, it never actually arrives.
Feel gratitude. Be, just be.
At this moment with my perception, my anticipation of tomorrow’s arrival of 2016, I make a list of what I’m grateful for at this very moment.
- Mitzi’s warm fur in my lap.
- The new solid oak a table at which I sit.
- This here iPad pro thingy from which I blog.
- The nagging pain in my shoulder, for I have a shoulder and can feel it.
- The sun that is glinting off of the hardwood floor and warming my room as it blinds my peripheral vision.
- This creaky old drafty house.
- My thoughts.
- My husband.
- My family, friends and clients.
- My work.
- My talent.
- The air as it cools the inside of my nose.
- The US postal service that will deliver all the bills I just finished writing out.
- The static of my housekeeper’s radio playing that same Mexican AM radio station yet again.
- Celia as she cleans the house and complains about a mess one of the dogs made.
- The lingering taste of peanut butter in my mouth.
- The color red.
- The memories I have of yesterday.
- The dreams I have for tomorrow.
- The love that fills my heart.
Thank you 2015. A year of memory. Welcome 2016. A year that is yet to come and full of endless possibility.
Peace to us right now, this moment, as we sit in our present.
I admired her before
and now I admire her more.
When I posted yesterday, after several days of internal debate whether I would or wouldn’t, I had no idea that this would be released today.
I’m Verklempt.
Why this beard likes Hillary
Disclaimer:….Being that this is not a political blog, this entry is not meant to rouse support for any one candidate nor is it written to sway anyone to any political leaning. I write to journal my thoughts about a woman that I happen to admire….
I was raised Republican. I voted the party line until the 1992 Presidential elections. I voted for Bill. I had started to get away from the beliefs instilled in me mainly because I was gay and had grown tired of watching all of my friends die of a disease that I felt our government should be doing more about. Therefore I pulled the lever for a Democrat for the first time. I felt like I was betraying the values I had been raised in.
A lot has changed in me since that day. I have become quite the liberal over the years. While I don’t necessarily vote straight democratic, I vote mostly democratic. I try to keep an open mind but most that resonate with my current core values are liberal and sometimes very much so. That’s me and a bit of my background, I hope that readers can respect that.
Hillary as we first got to know her.
Bill had this blonde wife that came out with a powerful positive get it done energy about her. She stepped out of the classic First Lady role into a leading role. I really liked that. A woman not afraid to speak her mind and then do something about what her mind was set on. I found this not only refreshing but inspiring.
She got a lot of backlash. I guess she was too much, out of the classic First Lady role, too fast. The powers that be had to do some damage control and tone her down. I was disappointed about that. I remember thinking “Two for the price of one! Now let’s get some work done!” Then I was reminded that Bill, and only Bill was elected, not Hillary. Damn. I had been toned down as well I guess. She went on to do well as a First Lady and Bill as a great President. I was sad to see them leave office, but that’s how it works here and I believe in limits and the spirit of rotation.
Then off to New York and in short time Hillary became Senator Clinton. I was elated. The woman that I respected with her drive had gone to work. Work to continue moving forward. That is an ethic I admire. No retirement after hubby dear finished his presidency. No writing only a book and making dollars off of speaking engagements. She was a liberal woman with ideals to help the working class American get and stay on their feet. She was vibrant and ambitious, she put herself to work to keep working for others. Face it, she and Bill were set for life after his term was up. They could be living comfortably without this stress.
So as if service in the Senate was not enough, she threw her hat in and ran for President. When she wasn’t nominated she didn’t stop. Back to being a Senator. Then when the new President that beat her out of the nomination called, she was there ready to serve as Secretary of State. One thing Hillary is not afraid of is work. Hard work. Stressful work. Hell, when does this woman sleep? She so inspires me. I do not have her drive to serve, nor do I wish to have that much drive. But she inspires me to have some drive to serve others, help others, better my community and keep on working. There is reward in service and work. It’s worth the time and effort. She reminds me of this easily forgotten fact.
Secretary of State Hillary
After her Secretary of State position she actually did take a couple years off. Well deserved time to rest, reflect, examine, decide and plan. Decide she did. As most thought she would do, she is running for President. No retirement, no golf courses or painting classes. Bill makes a fortune speaking. Chelsea is married, has a child and a career. Hillary has many reasons that she could just stop. Both she and Bill have left a great legacy of service and good. But why stop? She has drive. She has good ideals. She can still work to make even more of a difference. She can help a people, a country and a world. She’s going to continue working. I love her for that.
Yep this Beard is a Fearsome Hillary fan. I look forward to the coming Presidential race. I wish Hillary all of the best. May strength, passion, health, vision, wisdom, insight, drive, humility, care, compassion, service and positive force energy be hers in the coming months.
….if you haven’t had enough of my babble, this video knocks it out of the park. Worth the watch even if you aren’t a Hillary nut, but would like to know a bit more of what’s inside that blonde mane.
Thank you Hillary for being a champion of good cause, a fighter and an inspiration.
Fearsome Beard 