Own it.

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I realized earlier today that I was obsessing about something from my past. It kinda drained the energy out of my day. I just wasn’t getting things done that I wanted to. I felt off, not good at the game. I didn’t purposefully choose to, I just let my mind drift into thinking about it. I started to replay different scenarios in my mind. I was letting my ego run with it. My ego was trying to place blame, it was feeling victimized. The ego will do this when left unchecked in order to build itself.

I finally snapped out of it when I heard a comment from another person that was on another subject (this was playing only in my mind I had not brought it up). This person was talking about himself when he said “I must own it”.

Light bulb! His comment opened my eyes to the present. It brought me back from the non-reality of my ego dwelling on the past.

I must own it. It happened. My evening has been so much better than my day. I’ll sleep good tonight.

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7 thoughts on “Own it.

  1. I tell folks the good things about the past are incorporated into the present, and the bad things should be left in the past. Much of my job is trying to get people’s past out of the present.

  2. it IS hard to let the past go sometimes, isn’t it? yes, I deal with it too. but then I ask myself “would I want to go back to [that time and place]?” the answer is a resounding HELL NO! life is better NOW!

  3. Forgiveness, forgiving others and forgiving yourself for what has happened in the past, is something you do for yourself, not for others. Taking ownership of what your past, may be a step in forgiving yourself for the past. I had never thought through that process.

  4. There is something at work in most humans called CONSCIENCE. Some prefer to leave conscience behind, and they will find endless ways of silencing it. Others OWN their conscience, understanding that in the Yin/Yang part of human essence there will be things we will assess from time to time, that usually means something in a day ‘triggers’ something questioned or unresolved from past experience. I am in the latter category; I OWN my conscience, and embrace it – good memories to bad choices to challenges. It is what helps me realize every action I perform has an effect in the world around me; and being a perpetual wordsmith, there are times words are shared that challenge – because without lovingly confronting myself there is no mental stimulation to consider, grow and stay grounded. It gives me pause to reflect on how I’m doing, the daily self-assessment of ‘to thine own self be true’. In order for peace, harmony and furry goodness to spread well I know my own role and part, to live in reality and strive for the better. Perfection I left off a long time ago, it is a vain pursuit; besides, life can be enjoyed so much more engaged in mutual promotion and cohesiveness without egos inflating. That in itself is how Conscience balances ‘self’ in relation to others. If Love is the goal and the objective, Conscience is the gatekeeper and the personal trainer.

  5. Wow, all I can say is that we have a lot in common. My past weighs on me heavily at times. It has affected my ability for true happiness more than once in my life. I know it’s not right to do but it is hard to fight. I liken it to the lines from one of my favorite musicals and the song within it – “Les Miserables”. It goes…
    “But the tigers come at night
    With their voices soft as thunder
    As they tear your hopes apart
    And they turn your dreams to shame”
    One thing I have been told to remember is that it is part of my personal history and it has shaped me into who I am. Without even one of those things in my life I would be a different person. Would that be better or worse? I don’t know, but I like to think it has given me compassion and understanding with others. You are wonderful.

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