Month: December 2014

Reflections on a winter solstice

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A good blogger bud, Spo @ Spo-reflections, write a wonderful post on today’s winter solstice. His take on the peaceful part of it gave me a new appreciation for the day and winter itself.

I am not a winter person. I just flat out like warm weather and long days. I just have never stopped to think and appreciate the cool and darker days for what they are, a respite. A time to rest, reflect and recharge. I thank Spo for the insight and new perspective.

This day, the shortest daylight of our northern hemisphere year, also gives me reason to celebrate. I celebrate the return of lengthening days. Light is always welcome in my life be it sunshine or a new perspective.

Who better than the Beatles to mark the occasion? Happy Winter Solstice!

 

My pixie (elf if you prefer)

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He doesn’t have a name, never has. I’ve had him on my own tree since I was about 5. My mom bought me a little 2 ft tree that I had as my own in my room. He was from the big tree in the living room and my mom let me have him to put on my tree. I gave him the responsibility of starting the decorating of my tree each year. He went on first. Most years he still does, unless I can’t find him at first. He has a small strand of tattered tinsel in his hands that dates back to my childhood.

He’s on the tree again this years as is tradition. He watches over the decorating and then the tree as we sleep. I hope he is always on my tree as long as I am around to have one. He makes me smile. I remember the little boy who cherished the sight of him each year. I am now a man who cherishes his smiling face each year. He’s showing a bit of age, but so am I. I am happy that we are growing old together. I think he is too.

When I was a young boy I thought he was magical. You know what, I still believe he is. He makes at least one person in this world happier and hopefully a few more who may see him on my tree.

My little elf on our 2014 Frasier Fir.

My little pixie on our 2014 Frasier Fir.

 

Miracles

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I believe in Miracles.

I don’t believe I randomly came out of no where. If I did come randomly out of no where, I believe it’s a miracle that the randomness created me. Right here? Right now? And How?

I don’t follow any religion. I don’t feel I have to. I don’t need to know how, who, what happened to make me. I don’t believe its possible for me, in my limited senses, to fully understand all there is and what force created me and the world that I understand.

I believe in love. The energy and force that created me also created the power of love. My love comes from deep within. I believe that if I just acknowledge deep within me that there is love, feel the love and have gratitude for it, the force greater than me will bring me peace and see me through whatever comes my way.

Where do I go from here? What happens to me after my present existence? The one thing I know is that another human is not the one who decides that, or tells me what, when or how. I know that the other human is as limited as I am in senses, thus they cannot understand the full scope or vastness of our universe any more than I can.

I believe that we can all share and discuss our beliefs. I believe its ok to follow different paths. I feel we should respect each other and that its good to take bits and pieces that resonate with ourselves and incorporate what works. I believe in Good. On a deeper level we are all good and fortunately most choose good. I work to choose good daily. It’s a choice and yes it sometimes is work, but work worth the work.

I believe in celebrating life. I believe in miracles. I celebrate the miracle that is life.

Lyrics to This Maccabeats tune Miracle:

Just livin’ in the miracle, candles are my vehicle
Eight nights, gonna shine invincible
No longer be divisible, born through the struggle
Keep on moving through all this hustle
Head up, heads down through all of the bustle
New York City wanna flex your muscle
Look so down, look so puzzled
Huddle ’round your fire through all the rubble

Bound to stumble and fall but my strength comes not from man at all
Bound to stumble and fall but my strength comes not from man at all

[Chorus]
Do you believe in miracles
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
Eight nights eight lights and these rites keep me right
Bless me to the highest heights with your miracle

Against all odds drive on till tomorrow
Wipe away your tears and your sorrow
Sunrise in the sky like an arrow
No need to worry, no need to cry
Light up your mind no longer be blind
Him who searches will find
Leave your problems behind you will shine like a fire in the sky
what’s the reason we’re alive — the reason we’re alive…
Bound to stumble and fall but my strength comes not from man at all
Bound to stumble and fall but my strength comes not from man at all

[Chorus]
Do you believe in miracles
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
Eight nights eight lights and these rites keep me right
Bless me to the highest heights with your miracle

Eight is the number of infinity one more than what you know how to be
And this is the light of festivity when your broken heart yearns to be free

[Chorus]
Do you believe in miracles
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
Eight nights eight lights and these rites keep me right
Bless me to the highest heights with your miracle

One of Those days

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Don’t get me wrong as it has been a good day.

I just feel like I haven’t accomplished much.

It’s getting dark and I’m not motivated. I had my teeth cleaned today. I did some training at work. Been shopping and gave out gifts to support staff at the office then came home and haven’t done anything since. I suppose it’s ok, but I look around and there are things that I should do.

I guess I need to give myself a break and realize I have accomplished a few things and that maybe I just need to have down time. I feel like recording this here so I can contemplate it a bit deeper and maybe find motivation for tomorrow.

This evening I have dinner with a friend in from out of town. It will be nice to see him.

Does anyone else have these days once in a great while? I’m sure you do. How do you feel about yourself when you haven’t accomplished as much as you think you should have?

Oh and before I forget … Happy Chanukah!

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Snow in San Diego!

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Yep unbeknownst to some, it snows in San Diego. Well in San Diego county it snows. Ranging from sea level to over 8,000 feet and about the size of the state of Connecticut, San Diego has many different climates and terrains. We have another pacific storm upon our little corner of the world and this is a cold one. Thus the snow levels are dropping to about the 4,000-5,000 foot level and will give us our snow capped mountains just in time for Christmas.

Fearsome you ask? Well he lives near the coast at about 200 feet.  For him it will be in the low 60s for highs he will have to look to the east when it clears up, about Thursday, and enjoy the white capped mountains from afar. He is fine with this.

Who better to welcome the snow to San Diego than none other than the most talented and wonderful Ella Fitzgerald?

Have a wonderful fun filled day!

I accept

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I accept myself.

I accept my flaws and my assets.

I accept my circumstances, my career, my bills, my bank account, my responsibilities.

I accept my body, it’s flaws, its age, it’s health, it’s aches, its strength, it’s good points and those I wish to improve.

I accept my weaknesses, my insecurities, my addictions, my faults, my mistakes.

I accept my strengths, my abilities, my success, my character, my talents.

I accept my desires.

I accept my family, my friends, my enemies, my neighbors, my clients, my co-workers.

I accept my fear, my courage, my honesty, my dishonesty.

I accept my love, my dis-likes.

I accept my laughter, my tears, my anger, my happiness, my hurt, my joy.

I accept that life is change, life is work, life is reward, life is loss, life is triumph, life is disappointment, life is good, life is bad, life is confusing, life is certain.

I accept I am alive. I accept I am not perfect. I accept others are not perfect. I accept I am human. I accept others are human. I accept that growth is necessary for improvement, understanding and contentment.

I accept the more I give the more I will receive. I accept I must give of myself first freely with no expectation and I accept that I may never see the results.

I accept I do not need to understand the universe in its entirety.

I accept the present, the past and whatever the future may bring.

I accept I am my responsibility.

I accept I cannot change anyone else.

I accept only I can change me.

 

 

 

Anything is

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Possible.

From Webster online.

From Webster online.

Last evening was spent with a friend. We had a great time having just good conversation. We got onto the subject of our life paths and where each of us were. As it turned out we had much in common and are both very happy with where we each are and where we are each headed.

I talked about my blogging and the growth of Fearsome related to the growth of my soul. I am learning so much about me, who I am and what I desire to become. That I don’t want to just say that I want to become a better me, but to actually be a better me. Love others and love myself. Be fully honest not only with others but with myself, honest period. Forgive. Truly be at peace, live fully and have my security come from deep within me, not from outside sources.

I shared that in my journey I have rediscovered the wonder and magic of life that I felt when I was a young child. It’s there, always has been, but I had gotten caught up in the expected and lost it along the way. In my recent growth I have discover the courage to become open and willing to all that is, and found that wonder and magic again. I am deeply grateful to have found myself right where I am, right now.

She shared that on her path she has opened herself to possibility. She had found herself caught up in the work a day world, caught up in what was expected and fallen into stereotypes. She had lost all sense of possibilty and felt trapped, closed and was helpless to anything different. Her life was what it was and that was that.

She spoke of how she woke up and desired growth and change. She holds deep gratitude for that day she woke up and how she has changed and that she has found the possibilities in the world that she couldn’t see. She is learning anything is possible, anything at all.

Together we discussed how possibilities, wonder and magic are similar. We laughed as we felt gratitude for having found them again. How having them makes life good, happy, fulfilled and content. They give us freedom, hope, love and joy.

Today I contemplate possibilities. I hope you can too. Just think of a few things that were impossible ten or twenty years ago that we have, use and enjoy today. Then they were impossible, they became possibilities and today are real. Anything is possible, anything.